Recent thoughts

Have been listening to a lot of christian songs recently and chatted with a lot of christians. I never felt the need to honor God in these few years till now......Recently I just want to do everything for Jesus and be the best in everything for God, there is a sports man said "To win is to honor God"...and indeed it is very true for me.

There are many christians that refuse or are afraid to say they are christians, they keep parts of their lives to themselves because the are afraid that God will change it or God will not allow them to do certain things. You can read in their writings or blogs that they don't really write about the testimony of what God has done in their lives or what they wish to do in God.

Hmmmmz I am not judging or discrediting them but I would advise them to GIVE every part of their lives to Jesus, let me share with you a story.

When I was bout 18 I discovered a society of playboys, their creed or goal is to get as many girls as possible . They publish books and writings or their adventures and conquest and "how to". I got a couple of their books and started to do some experiments on my own.......deep in my heart I felt it was wrong as in the book of Romans it says man has the ability to feel and know right from wrong.

But I was telling myself to just ignore it and carry on with the experiment as I am afraid to give God the part of my life, the "love life" part. Although it worked in the experiments but I still felt an emptiness, its like you have attained your ultimate goal yet you feel so EMPTY!!!

I could not believe it, how come its like that??? I went to reflect and came up with a conclusion, due to the fact that I did not give God this "part" of my life, I just felt empty, not in the soul as I am saved by Jesus, but the "love life" part feels so empty.....

GIVE, GIVE EVERYTHING to Jesus!!!

Don't be afraid, God is a God that NEVER let you down :)

Give Him the best and be the best you can be.....Blog and tell the world JESUS IS YOUR KING!!!

Life is frail....

I just want to use this time I have to blog about my favorite uncle, my mum's elder sis's husband.....hehehe...take a moment to think as Chinese families are large and we have a lot of links...

Anyways I always remembered having great memories with this uncle, when I was little I would hang out at aunt's house and aunt will always give me SUPER LONG lectures about life and behaving as I was a super naughty kid. But uncle will always treat me super well and give me all the good food like chicken wings and drinks :P

Then this year due to his long habit of smoking he caught lung cancer, it started out as a backache but it turned out to be terminal cancer. I will advise you or anyone to constantly go for checkups and have a healthy lifestyle. Uncle passed away on Monday, I kinda "sensed" it, during Sunday I had this strong calling to go to woodlands and just pray for uncle and see him.

I went back and prayed that he will have visions of Jesus and would slowly accept Him, and that he will pass on without pain, to pass on in his sleep. I went back home on Sunday, then on Monday I heard that uncle pass on in his sleep...... I was SHOCKED!!! If I had not gone to see him on Sunday I would NEVER have a chance, and he was happy and smiling when he saw me.

I was terribly hit with a feeling of sadness but I just could not cry for a reason, I keep seeing all the memories I had with him since I was 7.........

Went to help out at the funeral, there was little regrets or sadness as everything was prepared and done according to uncle. Talked to my cuzzies and all the uncle,aunties.....They seem impressed that by God that I have changed so much since the last encounter. God just impresses them everytime :)

Friday, I was thinking if I should go school or go the funeral, in the end I went to the funeral for the last time and after the whole thing went to swim and train.....Super exhausted these few days.....Felt like I nv rested!!!

Recent thoughts

Recently I think I have acted maliciously to a classmate of mine, in so many years of my life as a student I have NEVER seen a WHOLE class turning against ONE person!!! There is a weird classmate that pissed EVERYONE in the class by doing very selfish things. But since God has forgiven me I will forgive, initially I was not pissed off, but after the guy added the girl(from my previous posts the one I had a crush on), my anger just burned! Just a anger of how an alpha male would feel if other males get too close to his mate......arhhh what a bad example LOL>>>>>>>>>Elv_Wan

Well today I managed to sleep for 8 hours, attended the walkaton in school but I ran so finished it quickly. Got to see an Israelite martial art call Kapap, its a special forces martial art so not widely known, the master told me to wear a helmet and try to dodge him, me and my friend who is a black belt LOST!!!!!!!! TOO FAST!!!

Very interesting martial art, planning to learn a bit for health. Then went to COOS to visit uncle geeyean HAHAHAHAHA his gonna kill me when he see I type "uncle". I was SHOCKED!!!!!!!! Today was AMAZING!!! Can really feel and see the anointing of the Spirit. Its like every time I have a question, I go to COOS its solved in some way!!!

Something happened to gee yean that has not happened in 10 years...they call it the holy laughter bahs.....hmmmz anyways. I really enjoyed the whole worship and I learned something new.

According to science, and from this book call gray's anatomy....not the tv show it is a doctor's book, according to the book, it is said that when a woman is pregnant, the blood of the baby is not from the female's body but from the male.

Jesus Christ was conceived of the Holy Spirit, so the blood of Jesus was not from Mary but from the Father in heaven. If the blood of Jesus had human elements in it then it would have been corrupted because the fact is that the layman has sin passed down through the generations from Adam, but the blood of Jesus is PURE!!!

That's why we can say that the blood of the lamb can forgive sin and heal us :)

Indeed it was meant for good!!!

Today I am utter ashamed yet SATISFIED!!! It was a very long day, went to school but found out that ALL my teachers CANCELLED, so technically I have NO SCHOOL!!! But went to discuss my Final Year Project instead as it was rejected :( SIS and bros PLEASE PRAY for my final year project :) cuz its really a challenge and I only have 3 weeks left.

Then went to help my CCA teacher fix some carts as I am the overall in charge for logistics. After everything went to SWIM!!!

Initially my goal to go swim is to flirt with the girl life guard and to practice conversing with women as I am very FRIGHTENED by them. Was happily swimming and flirting, playing some number and name guessing names. Then she asked me a question that SHOOK my world, "Hey are you a christian?"!!!! , I was SUPER shocked, I was thinking HEY HOW DID YOU KNOW??? Then she shared that she could feel I am a christian because she WAS ONE HERSELF!!!

I was asking God for forgiveness in my mind cuz I think I did a bad thing by wanting to know her with an agenda..........I listened to her sharing and frustrations on her church and relationship with God. Went to swim a few laps and a name just came into my head, sheeming/shimin or something.

Went back to talk to her and found that her name is Stella, counseled her a bit and talked about God, the bible and how God is really a God of Love. That if a man has 100 sheep and loses one of them, after many hours finally find back that one lost sheep....how HAPPY he will be, then I added a final note.....YOU are the sheep :)

I truly enjoyed talking to her and just praying for her as a older brother in Christ, I apologized to her and confessed that initially I just wanted to practice talking to women so chatted with her but she did not believe that I was Terrified with women lols. A verse just came into my head, Treat all younger women with purity and respect as your little sisters :) .....I believed then God has forgiven :) in Genesis 50:20

²⁰"As for you, ^A)">(A)you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good in order to bring about this present result, to preserve many people alive.

INDEED it was meant for good :)

Chatted more about the Holy Spirit and shared that I normally don't swim during Tuesdays so maybe God has send me to bring her back to the heart of worship :P She seem to enjoy the whole time with me and God.

As we were walking to the bus stop, I asked a question:"HEY is your chinese name shimin or something like that??? SHE FREAKED OUT, I was thinking Hallelujah Praise God :)
God is really trying to bring you back sis!!! Heard that most people can't figure out her chinese name but God revealed it to me bahs :)

Lord let Your grace and glory be shown on her :)

Then went to meet my sis for dinner and buy a pair of Nikes as my shoe was STOLEN!!! boohoo butI forgive and bless that person........Watched Angels and Demons which was kinda nice cuz I understand, but this movie seems to attack the Catholics more than Christians LOL HAHAHA!!!

Yep yeps

FRIDAY

Another powerpacked week, I have learned another important thingy :)

The bible always tells us to relate to God as a child of God, and that He is our father and I find it amazing that a lot of us ACTUALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO!!! :) I believe for Asians its even worse because for us Chinese we don't really show our emotions to our elders or parents and that is just so sad.

As I have blogged previously that I sinned against the Lord in some of the choices I made and there was this incident, I was in my classroom doing a lab then I thought my team mate already let the teacher to check my circuit. So I turned back and switch the power switch on and half of my lab short circuited!!! The teacher was pissed LOL, then he said something that really made sense to me "WHO GAVE YOU PERMISSION TO.......". When I went back home to reflect upon this incident I can really relate back to our Father in heaven.

At times we do certain disgraceful things and God is pissed off, the Lord is actually feels the same way JUST as our parents/elders/teachers. The Father is just as our father in earth, He cares about us and are interested when we have girlfriends/boyfriends, when we work, when we do things :)

TREAT THE LORD AS YOUR OWN FATHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was really sad as I feel that I let the Father down at times, the feeling is just like letting your own father down :(
If the Lord do not give you the blessing or permission to do things DO NOT DO IT, a good example will be if you wanna date this guy/girl but your dad tells you not to cuz he knows that it is not right and the person don't have the character yet you disobey and in the end you get hurt.Is it your dad that did the wrong thing or you??? Go think about it :)

SATURDAY & SUNDAY

I recently picked up a habit that I like to do on Saturdays, I will take a guitar go up to the sanctuary and POUR out my sadness,let downs,problems,prayers and basically my Soul to God. I will play songs and pray to God and I felt the Spirit anointing me and there was a burning feeling in me, like my passion being rekindled :)

Went to eat dinner with xz and zh and alot of funny things happened, there was a poem

"Even though I dislike spring but I like the flowers
Even though I dislike summer but I like the rain

Even though I dislike autumn but I like the falling leaves
Even though I dislike winter but I like the falling snow
Even though I dislike the world but I like you only"

GUESS WHAT XZ SAID???

"Even though I dislike vitasoy I like your MILK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"......................lol

SOOO FUNNY LOR, then saw henry's mum xz held us back and went to auntie's back and shouted "ROBBERY GIVE ME YOUR MONEY!!!" Auntie gave the FUNNIEST EXPRESSION!!!!!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHA SOOOOO BAD LOR :) thats why gen loves him LOL.

Then went to eat, its suppose to be called "olive rice" in chinese "kan lan fan", zh said "kum lan fan" which means "oral s*x rice" .................................

LOL so many funny things :)

But I really enjoyed the sunday service, but had to go study for my mathematics :)

PRAY FOR ME ALL OF YOU AND BE BLESSED :)

Updates

Wow alot has happened to me these 2 weeks. But I really want to thank God that I can preach His gospel and share the love of Jesus to my friends,strangers and classmates. Sunday night was great as I was able to pray for a sister in the church on her studies. Monday was more on sharing the message and blessings of Jesus to my classmate, I met this guy whom was working for the bank Prudential. He told me about this investment plan which I really liked as I don't really know where to put my money and often end up spending it.

The plan basically lets me earn an interest of 5% and above in a year. I also watched star trek hahas, was kinda fun to learn about this super intelligent race. I could relate to that alien, the alien was a mix with human and alien blood. So what happens was the alien got alot of emotions but yet his race demands absolute logic instead of using emotions to reason with matters. Sometimes I have to force myself to use logic to think and solve things but at the end of the day I feel so contradicted and unhappy LOL......

I took cab a couple of times these week and was able to talk about God and Jesus everytime and I feel that it is really a blessing to be able to preach. I know that every single time we talk to others about God, God will not forget it, God will honor everytime we preach. It is an honor to minister to others to bring the gospel of love and peace to the world :)

Hehes but I was also punished for my sins(I won't give the details) too, the word says "Whom ever the Father loves He rebukes". So I am also quite happy hehes.

Went to swim and saw a girl life guard, I took the opportunity to make friends and I think humored her alot. I am trying out experiments on certain stuff, I hope to accomplish a special goal I have and not sin against God :)

Pray for me :)

Saturday :p

It has been revealed onto me but I would like to apologize to God, He showed me not to woo that girl and told me to let go. I thought I have really let go, but when I saw her with other guys joking and laughing I get so Jealous and frustrated. Then I realized I have not truly let go, I went to swim, do push ups and then went to the gym for 2 freaking hours!!! To just try to forget her, EVERY rep EVERY stroke I have tried to forget her to forget her beauty, to forget her cuteness, to forget how she stole my heart away without doing anything......I have truly been defeated by a girl this time......

When I let go it is the moment I know what it is true love, true love is sacrifice more than forcing on. I spend the night PRAYING FOR HER,and reading the bible. I though that the group of guys who flirted with her, there was a guy whom I thought was kinda perfect for her so I prayed that God will bring them together if it is His will. Although it really breaks me again and again but I just want her to be HAPPY!!! sob sob(Nah I am not crying :P) LOL

I brought tony to swim today and went to the sauna at De en's condo, had a great bonding and I really understand why the ancient Greeks love public bath houses and sauna's so much. I don't want to let my broken heart affect my serving to God and studies haizzzzz

So emo nowadays :p
Pray for me sisters and brothers :)

Thursday :p

Wow another power packed few days :)

I just found out that my Final year project is EXTREMELY difficult but I am GLAD!!!! IN Psalms 27 there is a line that strikes out to me ............

³ Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then will I be confident.
This verse really ENCOURAGED me by 100000000% hehe, I went to Clementi to see the supplier to check out my solar panels and was shocked by the whole experience and was discouraged,then went to the bus stop super late as the supplier won't stop talking. It was 8.45pm called my cca, event's head, Yixiang 2 times she nv rely so sian cuz everything was very last minute.....

I can't find any bus to go back to Clementi Mrt so had to take 66 which was 37 bus stops before reaching my home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then I was thinking, "Hey I have sinned against the Lord and I told Him to break and punish me according to His righteousness" so I was thinking serves me right :)

Everything that day was a mess, then a sudden thought came to me, why not read the bible since I have 37 bus stop. I manage to read the whole chapter of Matthew as I was already in chapter 19-20??? Yixiang sms me say want to send me things on msn and I thought I might have offended her cuz I smsed her saying "Wah you soooo good lor can enjoy dinner while I am at Clementi lols"....in fact she was STUDYING!!!!! Then I felt, wow she is no christian yet she works sooooooooo freaking Hard!!! Why am I so lazy??????

So I sms her "Wah I am so mean lor.........Drink more water, try some coffee for energy and eat some fruits, don't over strain your body". Was kinda feeling beaten up by a girl cuz I thought I was sooo "ON" and hardworking but she beat me to it........LOL!!!

When I reached home I was kinda sad so slept but CANT SLEEP!!! ARHHH lol

Then today I went to school and swim, after swimming for like 50 mins the guard chase me OUT!!!! cuz I was wearing surfing pants instead of swimming pants LOL....Again I was thinking Hey maybe God can make my situation better so I prayed.... Then I saw the guard carrying some heavy stuff so I just went to apologise and ask if he needed help......

At the end of the day we became good friends HAHAHHAHAHAHA I heard he wrote 3 books on body building and training . He taught me alot of stuff in weight training and running :)

Went to borrow his books at the library and they were just one final copy left and I was like wow thank YOU GOD :)
Then went to Pasir ris to eat subway before going home...................

God bless :)

Spiritual day

Today was especially spiritual and I have not experienced anything like this for a long time. Went to the school and just prayed for classmates and especially Francis (not my uncle with the same name), I was really feeling a peace and joy I have not felt for sometime.

Then went to De en's condo to meet his mum and just chatted and returned LOADS of books. It was really an enjoyable chat because we shared many Testimonies about God and how God helped us in time of need. De en's mum said that her dad pass away when she was young and God really helped her mum to run a business and it was really thriving. In Proverbs we learn that God helped widows and will not allow the righteous to starve it HOW TRUE IS THAT AMEN HALLELUJAH.

But I really enjoyed teaching auntie to play guitar and went to swim, I was granted unlimited access to the pool and gym from now on :P

I just want to thank Jesus to bless me again and again :)

Breakdown

Yesterday night something happened to me that I never expected, I was thinking about my parents and all the people around me then I suddenly broke down and cried!!! I was thinking that Mothers and Fathers day is coming so what is on my mind, I thought about my parents and how God blessed me by giving such good parents who provided me with everything emotionally to materially.

I thought and thought then noticed that I have NOTHING for them, I have failed as a son, I am never good enough. I compared a lot of my neighbor's children and it broke me again, I am just an ITE student that has no qualifications now. But Jesus really matters more, then I thought about my brothers and sisters in Christ then it broke me again. I have done NOTHING and have NOTHING for GOD. The sadness just overwhelmed me and I saw all the sins I did in the past , it came back to haunt me and I felt I let down God more than anyone.

Then I saw Stella and Shanna, and I remembered how Stella was so discouraged about Shanna not putting an effort in studying. I just prayed for those around me and was not able to sleep.

I woke up an hour earlier than I should to just go and read the bible and pray. Today was just GREAT HALLELUJAH!!!

Give thanks

First before I write this post I will like to say, Thank You Jesus, thank You for bearing with my childishness and iniquity even though I don't deserve it, thank You Jesus for showing me love and grace even though I was a sinner that kept going back to my sins, thank You for healing me.
............ Wan Qi Wei Elvis

Today when I woke up I felt so refreshed and healed from my heart break(read last few posts), I knew Jesus had forgiven and healed me for being so childish. I believe that God will lead me to the right one :) meanwhile I will still like to pray for her salvation and that she too will be blessed in the kingdom of God. I went on the computer and just waited for my cousin for a while as I was gonna check out my uncle's church at aljunied. He haven't decided to stay at which church yet so we praying for him first. Then suddenly my cousin smsed me and said it was canceled so I was like OOOHHHHH MANNNN!!!! I prayed for God to lead me to explore a good church then I suddenly remembered Light House Evangelism!

Went there by cab as I was kinda late but I felt really good and refreshed :) the taxi uncle drove me to the wrong place then when we got there he was kinda nice to me and charge me cheap. So I thanked God for it :) I thank God in all things hallelujah Lord.
Today's service was on Revelations and I really LEARNED a lot of wisdom!!! Overall it is still a high quality church that I remembered lol.

Then went to eat subway before going to the airport and it was GREAT, the airport was super quiet and I did my bible study and read some books I bought from times, "Boy meets girl" was the title. Its a book by pastor Joshua Harris, I really learn to enjoy his books on relationships and it really taught and touched me. I felt so enlighten then Anthony called me to go for dinner and his driving LOL!!! Went BACK to tampines and took his lorry to bedok to FEAST and then was driven back home.

Now I am watching videos and gonna do more bible reading and prayers :P