Disappointment

Today was very anointed day for me, woke up declared victory in God and went out for my O level Maths class. When I went out I saw the sky was bright and there was no cloud, only the sun and white light. I was very awed and praised God for all His creations and beauty :)

After my class, went to buy ingredients for my weekly meal. Cut my hair and went to the gym, managed to train hard and after that invited my neighbor whose also a christian, to my library, I was not ashamed because my house is sooooo clean and smells so fresh unlike last time :)

The problem now came, I was trying to do something and I could not do it and I was really disappointed. I asked the Lord to rebuke me in His loving kindness and create in me a new heart, I had 3 tests and I only overcame 2, but I really feel the Lord's presence in delivering me from these 2 tests. Then on the 3rd test I was too tired and my faith was low so I lost on the 3rd test.

I believe God will forgive my failure, Lord I really need You to be the Lord of my heart and the strength of my life. I can't do it by myself, I need You Lord :)
I kept Your words in me so that I will not sin, and if I sin I pray that I may be delivered and overcome all obstacles :)

I could sense a strong spiritual warfare just now, a battle between the 2 but I will not elaborate. I need time to heal from all of this and be ready for the next attack. I told myself not to sin against Him and I believe He will give the the protection through the Holy Spirit and the blood of Lord Jesus!

140th post, WORDS OF WISDOM

Wow I got maths camp tomorrow :P So I'll just do a short one.
Recently as I am lying on my bed, I just can't sleep a lot of things just zapped into my mind. I kinda get the feeling of how the prophets felt during that time of the Old and New testaments. Several ideas and wisdom came to me, I'm gonna share one of them.

I was at youth fellowship yesterday, brother Nigel was not there so I MSNed him at night and asked him where was he. He told me he was doing project and studying with his classmates. I could vividly remember being reprimanded by pastor and some elders when I skipped church younger :P

I did not reprimand nor blamed brother Nigel instead I told him I was quite relived that he is studying and doing school stuff instead of hanging out with the wrong crowd.

NO I AM NOT ENCOURAGING PEOPLE NOT TO GO CHURCH OR FELLOWSHIP

I learned one thing, YOU CAN NEVER FORCE A PERSON TO DO SOMETHING.

I KNOW that God uses different opportunities and different ways to glorify His name through us. Maybe to certain people God wants them to go fellowship, maybe to others God wants them to be at other places to preach the gospel.

Fellowship and bible reading ALL OF THESE we can do in heaven, we can even find Saint Paul to do bible study with us, BUT there is only one thing that we can NEVER do again in heaven, that is to PREACH THE GOSPEL.

WE MUST know the meaning behind stuff.

What is fellowship for?

We must understand that God wants us to worship Him and know Him together with other christians.
Fellowship is actually for christians to bond and serve with each other. The world is a very negative and sinful place if we stay in it for too long we ourselves will be sinful and negative. That's why we need fellowship to renew,rekindle and relax ourselves in the presence of God.
There is nothing magical behind it, its only natural.

BUT

Worship on Sundays is a commandment, WE MUST WORSHIP Him on Sundays, Worship is also to renew,rekindle and relax ourselves in the presence of God but also of course worship.

My point is , If a christian is not at fellowship but doing a testimony or preaching somewhere, we should let him/her be, don't compromise such a good merit. Of course I am not telling anyone to skip fellowship. I want you guys to analyze the situation before skipping fellowship :) Of course best is don't skip, but no matter what you do, ANALYZE first.

In Luke 10

At the Home of Martha and Mary

³⁸As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. ³⁹She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. ⁴⁰But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!"

⁴¹"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, ⁴²but only one thing is needed.^f]">[f] Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her."

Jesus Himself wants us to learn how to analyze and see what is better an important. LET ME SHOW YOU ANOTHER EXAMPLE

Matthew 26

Jesus Anointed at Bethany

⁶While Jesus was in Bethany in the home of a man known as Simon the Leper, ⁷a woman came to him with an alabaster jar of very expensive perfume, which she poured on his head as he was reclining at the table.

⁸When the disciples saw this, they were indignant. "Why this waste?" they asked. ⁹"This perfume could have been sold at a high price and the money given to the poor."

¹⁰Aware of this, Jesus said to them, "Why are you bothering this woman? She has done a beautiful thing to me. ¹¹The poor you will always have with you, but you will not always have me. ¹²When she poured this perfume on my body, she did it to prepare me for burial. ¹³I tell you the truth, wherever this gospel is preached throughout the world, what she has done will also be told, in memory of her."

OPEN your eyes and see, Dont just do things beacuse pastor or elders tell you to. OBEY and follow God. Choose the better one :)

The art of giving!!!

A couple of days ago I joined my friend for dinner, I knew he went to visit a certain church as he is not a believer yet and would like to know more about Christ. As I was walking with him and his church friends I noticed one of them had a bandage, I immediately remembered that this bandage is those "Blood donor" bandages. I ask this brethren :" Hey bro you just gave blood arh :) that's a very gracious thing to do"... The brethren replied:"Oh cuz its better to give than to receive mahs"...

I never thought much I just answered unknowingly without using my mind :" Oh that's good but you must know one thing, when we give, it should be to help and bless others not to expect anything back"....The brethren face suddenly changed then I suddenly awoke and thought :"Hey what did I say again? Have I offended anyone?"...If your reading this I am sorry if I have offended you but you must know your attitude is wrong, even though your 7 years older than me.

I went home to ponder and meditate on God's world, in

Acts 20:35 (New American Standard Bible)

³⁵"In everything I showed you that by working hard in this manner you must help the weak and remember the words of the Lord Jesus, that He Himself said, 'It is more blessed to give than to receive.'"

Amen its true! BUT...... Your attitude must be for helping others, to bless people who are less fortunate not to EXPECT God to bless you and make you rich!

Let me share a bit more, on Sunday after service me and the brothers finish bible class and went for dinner.... After we had dinner we went to this bubble tea store, I had the opportunity to just treat them for drinks and I did! After sometime I suddenly remembered :"Hey am I doing this with the right attitude or am I wrong to bless them ?" I analyzed the situation and Praised God!!! Yeah I did not do anything unrighteousness because my goal or intention at that time is to just bless them without expecting anything in return, when they thanked me I just told them to Praise God!!!

I think some of the brothers and sisters have been blessed by me through Father God :) I always like to borrow ,buy and give certain books or bibles to certain people that I feel God want me to bless :)

Deep in my mind my intention has always been to GLORIFY God and let His blessings overflow to others through me. I never expected Him to bless me back but He ALWAYS blesses me back.

I wanna thank and praise You Father God for bringing me so much wisdom and opportunity these few day, opportunities to invest the money that You have given to me, I will do it well, I will do it in Your name, ALL glory belongs to You Father God :)

I NEVER proposed that I am better than anyone, but I just feel this mentality of (NEVER expecting anything back, but expect to bless/help others and GLORIFYING God) to be a more God exalting mentality :)

Don't you agree? tag me and tell me your feelings. NOTE THIS POST IS NOT MEANT TO EXALT MYSELF BUT TO EXALT GOD

Conversations with God......Recent Thoughts..

I did something I don't much normally, I just talked to Father God, I POURED out my joy, feelings and problems to Him. I was so relaxed and strengthen through this conversation!!! I asked Him and inquired Him in the holy of the holies and I KNOW that He is there :)

Deuteronomy 4 (New American Standard Bible)

⁷"For what great nation is there that has a god so near to it as is the LORD our God ^J)">whenever we call on Him?

I learned a couple of of things these few days and I would like to share

LESSON1: God gives you tests that you can handle!

First lesson is...... I believe that a lot of people especially the older generations, have a wrong conception of God, in their minds. They often think that the Lord is ALWAYS testing them, throwing them with some sort of hard to do thing that is too high standard,that makes them end up being brokenhearted and brought down .

Lets do a contrast between the devil's temptation and the Lord's test.
There is a DIFFERENCE between TEMPTATIONS AND TESTS

the devil's temptation is to stumble,discourage and break you down.

God's test is to encourage, edify and pull you up!!! amen :)

It is not a sin to be tempted but it is a sin to give in to temptation and sin.

God will sometimes give you tests, like in the book of Job and various saints,prophets were tested :)
BUT notice one thing God don't give you things you can't handle

The bible often tells us that the relationship of God and us is like a Father to a child :)

Matthew 7

¹¹"If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, ^H)">(H)how much more will your Father who is in heaven give what is good to those who ask Him!

I noticed one thing.... when your son/daughter falls and break his/her leg, you will IMMEDIATELY go and embrace him/her and send the child to hospital right?

Who is crazy enough to laugh at his child if the child falls and break something? The Father God is so, He is SAD when we fall into sin and when we are down, but He is always there care and to EMBRACE us when cry for Him!

If your a person in the gym that can carry 10kg, God won't give you 1000kg to lift! I conclude that God will give you a test or challenge that is JUST RIGHT!!!

LESSON 2 Love Jesus who has already come :)

We humans are so &^**^&**^^&&(Don't wanna use naughty language)

We often can only love and put in feelings in things that we can see and touch, a good example will be...... If you like this girl, you start to develop feelings for her and think about her, and you start to love her. And the emotion can just develop continually because she is there, a object that you can develop feelings in.

But the Father God is a Spirit, He cannot be seen or touched therefore its so difficult for people to trust and love Him, even so in the case of a christian. You will find that at some point of your life you will love things like money,woman and certain items or things. And your feelings for God will fade away.

I FINALLY understand what Jesus said by

John 20 (New American Standard Bible)

²⁹ Jesus said to him, "Because you have seen Me, have you believed? Blessed are they who did not see, and yet believed."

We have MISSED out the main point.... Jesus is the "proof" and "Object" that came in the flesh so we can LOVE!!!

Hebrews 1 (New American Standard Bible)

³And He is the radiance of His glory and the exact representation of His nature, and upholds all things by the word of His power When He had made purification of sins, He sat down at the right hand of the Majesty on high,

Jesus already came!!! He is the one that we should put our feelings, emotions and trust in!!!

Don't put your trust and emotions in things that are of the world because you will be DISAPPOINTED!!! God will never disappoint you , God will only bring you up high and bless you in Him :)

Follow Jesus, don't follow the world :)

Dinner with Anthony,Xiangzhou and Kieve :)

Wow I had a lot of appointments and dinners these few days and I believe God has prepared them for me to share His miracles and wisdom with my brethren and friends :)

I went to 18chefs for like 2-3 times this week and I am sooooo addicted to the cheese bake rice HAHA! I just don't get sick of of the taste :P

But I manage to share the important stuff and today(22/6) I was able to share the gospel with 3 different people in the same day!!! I thank You God for Your amazing grace. The only problem I experience is that I don't have a good life testimony before my friends and brothers and sisters.

I think my testimony sucks!!! I need to pray and depend on the Father to bring me up to standard, I just keep saying the wrong things these few days. The bible says.....

James 3:5 (New International Version)

⁵ Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark.

⁶The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.

SORRYYYYY guys if I have sinned against you by saying the wrong things or speaking without using my wisdom! I don't have enough sleep recently so my judgment is clouded but I will work on it.

One thing I like about myself that God gave me is the ability to be constantly improving! I am not afraid of shame and I will ASK people to DARINGLY tell me what they don't like about me and I will CHANGE!

Dinner with Natasha!

Hey guys guess what place it is!!! Its....................18chefs my FAVORITE restaurant of all time!!!

Met Natasha, whom I think is another spiritual GIANT!!! In our Lord Jesus :)
Sorryyyyyyy to have made you wait for me :P was kinda late as I was rushing from gym :)
Saw her at 7-11, she was till having that very professional charisma, met her at a investment firm last time.

Was happy to know that she is a sister in Christ that time but did not talk to her, then recently she wanted to borrow Pastor Joshua Harris's books so I was happy to borrow her. Brought her to 18 chefs cuz I just had a feeling she will like it, the ambient and food was kinda made for her.

Shocked that we have the same interests in food, then showed her around simei and of course TRUEVINE christian bookstore :)

Send sis Natasha to mrt then I just went to the library to borrow books, I thank You Jesus cuz I got the book I needed!!!!!!! WHAT A BLESSED DAY :p

East Coast Park

I just came back from East Coast Park, unfortunately it was very last minute so I don't have any pictures. Went out with this older brethren, I was at De en's condo the other time and in the sauna I met this friendly "uncle" and we became good friends, went out for swimming and gym almost everyday. So today went to ECP with his kids, I am very impressed by how he handle his kids and family, he is a very family orientated guy which is kinda rare in modern society.

I learned a lot of wisdom in handling people and family wisdom, I believe God brought me to this elder brethren for "upgrading" I enjoy the chatting session and just listening, PLAIN listening. The word of God says in

Proverbs 9:9 (New International Version)

⁹ Instruct a wise man and he will be wiser still;
teach a righteous man and he will add to his learning.

Amen to that :) Indeed God GAVE me the wisdom I DESIRED. These few nights as I was going to bed I asked the Lord :"Lord Lord please give me wisdom......" Indeed if pray according to the will of the Father it will be given to us

John 15:7 (New International Version)

⁷If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you.

If you remain in God, what you want will naturally be for God, and if you want things to be done for God, IT WILL BE GIVEN TO YOU.....But now the key is LOVE AND FAITH

1 Corinthians 13

²If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.

I just have so many things to say, about the majesty of God the highest but words can't express what I want to say to Father God :)

Regarding the girl that I love, I will pray for her, I rather she get saved that become my gf, I rather she understand the love of Jesus and the tender mercies. I will pray a prayer of protection upon her and her salvation :)

Illness

I just had the sickest and weirdest dream to date..... In my dream a teenager was being kidnapped by 2 people, then when the teen threatened to call the police one of the kidnappers slit the throat of the teen, and released the teen, the teen went back home and died in the arms of his parents then I woke up feeling like vomiting...........

Anyways I plan to do a lot of gym training and to exercise as I have been diagnose that I might have high blood pressure, I will PROVE that Jesus can break through all curses or illness, I am gonna LIVE!!! But I need every single one of you sisters and brothers to just pray and release a prayer of blessing and healing upon me.

Remember that many people in the bible used to have illnesses but through their faith in Jesus they are healed!!! Jesus frequently says :"Your faith has made you well/whole"....I believe that by Faith my illnesses will all be gone!!!

I always thank God that I am able to see His mercies and blessings in my life, and how He uses me to bless others and to encourage them. I really feel most satisfied when He receives credit and glory...amen :)

The Power of Your Love!!!

As I waking up, I had the weirdest dream about visiting this sister but that's another story. Went to visit my uncle's church this morning and I thank God I was able to settle the ushering duty with Nigel. Heard a very meaningful sermon, the pastor said something that really enlightens me....:"There is so many things that we christian can do but there is only one thing that we cannot do in heaven, that is to preach the gospel to unbelievers. Fellowship,Worship,Singing....ETC you can do in heaven you can even find Paul to bible study with you in heaven, BUT you can NEVER preach to the lost sheep......." THATS SO TRUE!!!

Many times we emphasize too much on worship and all the outer parts but we forget that our mission in life as Christian is to PREACH the gospel of love to the lost that they may be saved by the love of God. "Jesus was beaten,shamed and KILLED just for you....all He wants is for you to put your trust in Him".......John Piper..... Amen preach the gospel :)

Then God shocked me again, I will not hide anything from you my brothers and sisters....I have sinned against the Lord, in the bible
1 Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

But I still sinned!!! so I questioned myself, its not a question of protection, its my OWN WILL!!! I was deeply troubled and apologized to the Father. Went to talk to my cousin about Logos and Rhema...... Then during the sermon the pastor shared about Logos and Rhema...... I was soooo shocked.......

Logos is the word, the understanding of the bible. Rhema is the fulfillment of the Logos, to make the word come "alive"....that is to apply the bible in our daily lives !!! Though I know the bible but I did not apply it to my life that's why I failed so badly.

After much prayer and the church ended, went to have lunch with uncle and cousin Michelle, uncle treated me and I am so blessed and grateful :) God bless him.

Went for a movie session and watched "Drag me to hell" My heart CANNOT take it!!! So scary!!! But I learned alot of new things :)

Anyways I am gonna pray and do some bible reading..... bye all, pray for me :)

Sauna day

I wanna take this opportunity to Praise and Thank Lord Jesus :)
Indeed when I let go and let God take over everything is just perfect, my Final year project was successful!!! Few weeks ago I was so tired and stressed out so I just prayed and let God intervene and trusted Him.....I told the Lord....if the faith of a mustard seed can move mountains then Lord my faith in You is MORE than a mustard seed!!!

And miracles started to happen, my proposal was accepted, the investors and Heads accepted my presentation, and the team began to do work :)

Ok today I went to the condo for gym and water training, Joel joined me as his house was under renovation. The training was kinda ermmmmmm light hahas, went for swim which was better than expected, gained some stamina. Then went for sauna which was kinda HOT!!!

Church started and I really enjoyed the worship but don't like the video cuz its soooooo sleepy but the content is good, I have to agree with that.
Choir began but did not join as I can't commit.

I wanna share this psalms, from psalms 31

Psalm 31

For the director of music. A psalm of David.

¹ In you, O LORD, I have taken refuge;
let me never be put to shame;
deliver me in your righteousness.

² Turn your ear to me,
come quickly to my rescue;
be my rock of refuge,
a strong fortress to save me.

³ Since you are my rock and my fortress,
for the sake of your name lead and guide me.

⁴ Free me from the trap that is set for me,
for you are my refuge.

⁵ Into your hands I commit my spirit;
redeem me, O LORD, the God of truth.

⁶ I hate those who cling to worthless idols;
I trust in the LORD.

⁷ I will be glad and rejoice in your love,
for you saw my affliction
and knew the anguish of my soul.