Recent thoughts

Wow these 2 weeks were a blast to me, had to learn so many things and manage to absorb in so much in such a short time that it made me a bit crazy :p
And there were so many interesting things that happened to me :)

1 I saw my picture on an ITE poster, under the Electrical Engineering dept and I feel so honored
2 I went to eat super nice sushi at Tampines1
3 I like the girl that I should not have liked again
4 I understand how God feels in a way :)
Initially I didn't know that I was featured on a poster till my classmate told me. I remembered my teacher wanted to take a picture of me when I was doing my calculations on an XL circuit which consists of a Resistor and an Inductor. The circuit is a fun one but I never thought and I really felt honored to be featured as I am proud(not bad pride) to be an electrical student but they put my pic in a nitec course which is ..............lol I am higher nitec lehzzzz

This I got to enjoy at Sushi Teh, the fish is 30 percent fresher than conventional Japanese Restaurants

Recently my passion rekindled for a girl again, I have blogged about her last time bahs......I don't know why but it just happened??? And so I prayed for God's sign, I believe many of my friends were thinking its kinda weird because normally when people fall in love they just go, as in just go to tackle the girl. But through much bible study and learning from other people's experience, I have learned to consult the Father in all things major and minor as much as I can.

A friend said:" you don't try you will never know...", I do agree but if God says no then it won't be right in His sight anyways so why should I do something that is against God. But don't get me wrong, I respect her, if I could use a color to signify her I would use white pure snow. True love is commitment and caring about each other truthfully not about having fun or physical relationships.

Many of the youths are too focus in getting what they desire than what God made love between two persons to be like. Joshua Harris wrote a book call "I kiss dating goodbye" and it really made things clearer to me and it raises several good points

Do I seek her to satisfy my needs?
Will we be able to give glory to God?
Will this relationship be on the goal of marriage?

Anyways I prayed for a sign to appear by Tuesday and by Wednesday I believe God will show me the way :)

I learned something from God again by looking into His shoes. In my situation, I prayed that God will show the way and that He will bless her and give her the right man instead of praying that she will fall in love with me. Because I know that true love is not forcing someone to do what you want but to give them space and ability to make their own decisions....FREE WILL!!!

That's why God created us even knowing that we have the possibility to sin, because through all these He knows that we really love Him or not :)

I end this post now and hope to blog about more interesting stuff :)

Movie

Today I went to just relax in the world of mathematics and engineering :)

I read the proverbs and a verse really stroke me, Agur whom is one of the writers of proverbs said something about him being the most stupid person as he don't have wisdom and do not know God. That is so humble because I read about his writings and it really seems that this man is intelligent by the way it is in Proverbs 30 GO READ IT UP......

The reason I say Agur is an intelligent man is in the verses 7-9, he asks God to give him neither riches or poverty!!! How many of us can do that? If he gets rich he will forsake God, if he is poor he will rob people. So he made a very logical choice of a balance, how many of us can really think this way and commit to Him. Agur also trusts in the Lord fully, it is being expanded on verse 5 whereby he says:" Every word of God is flawless; He is a shield to those who take refuge in him"

I really like the example of such wise people trusting and humbling themselves before the Father :) the bible also talks about pride, that a fool will win over any person that think he/she is smart and better than other people. Pride was the primary cause that made lucifer fell from the glory of the Almighty.

This verse applies to me differently (V3) I rephrase the verse in this way.....Surely I am more STUPID than any man,if I do not know God.....today my teacher said I am a genius, I do not know if it is meant seriously or jokingly but I suddenly remember Proverbs 30:3 again and it humbled me.

I am gonna do a report soon on "Defense of the Charismatic churches", though many negative reports have been written against the charismatics but I am gonna write supportive posts about them :)

I am back

Today is the second week of school and I learned an important lesson on forgiving, here is the story. It is my final year now so I have to form a group for my Final Year Project, those of you in Poly,ITE or Uni will know about it. So I manage to form a group which was all the A and B students in my class and we are considered a "strong" team.

There was a guy in my group who gave me a very good impression as he gave up his cca in order to study and do well for the project, so I was quite happy for him as if you think about it ccas are for getting you into poly easier but if you don't have the base of results you can dream about getting into poly cuz you can't! Then my teacher (whom coincidentally is a good friend and church friend of uncle Francis :P hahahaha I got strings to pull hehe nah lol kidding) my teacher wanted my group to do a project proposal by Sunday 12pm.

I completed the project proposal during Saturday and kept reminding that guy in my group to do further editing on it as I completed 90 percent of it liao so he just have to fill in the blanks, then 9pm I called him to confirm for the last time. Then late in the night at around 11.45 I can't contact the guy so I suspected that he slept then I was SUPER disappointed but I force myself not to blame anyone. Finally received a call and the guy really slept, my sister was also quite pissed off cuz the guy had no sense of urgency hehe the guy send me the edited version and now I was super disappointed. Its just a few words and arrows, so I did the whole thing again and send to my teacher but by then it was a bit too late. I hope everything will work out by the grace of God.

I suddenly was able to see a lesson from it :)

Matthew 6
14For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. ¹⁵But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

I knew this so what I did was I told myself I must forgive the guy for God has forgiven me for things even worse than what he did.

Another thing also opened in my mind :) What he did to me, as in how he gave me such high hopes and yet disappoint me, this feeling also gave me a preview of sometimes how the Father feels when we give Him such high hopes yet sinned and crush His hopes. Oh forgive me Father for I have sinned against You, I need you to show me the way and Your anointing of the Holy Spirit to keep me from sin.

Sometimes I like to put myself in the shoes/view of God, of how the Father view us from His place and how He must have felt when we do things that are not right in His sight and how sin is like shit poured on us from head to toe that only God can remove it. If you feed a person shit the person will say no but if you continue to feed the persons shit slowly in time the person will eat shit even if you don't tell him to. In so sin manipulates us in away that we become so ashamed to come before God for forgiveness. In the book of Genesis, God tells us to master our sin or we will be conquered by sin.

⁶ Then the LORD said to Cain, "Why are you angry? Why is your face downcast? ⁷ If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must master it."

40 day thingy

Recently I wanted to try this thing as I found that in the bible there are a lot of saints or prophets that did this 40 days of consecration whereby they pray and keep themselves from sin within this 40 days. I also remembered watching this movie call 40 days and 40 nights which is an american film about this guy that kept from all sexual sin due to a bet by his friends whom felt he can't do it.

Then I pondered again actually I already started this program and today is the 15th day but I find that hey actually some of the prophets and biblical people e.g. Noah,Elijah..... they did not know that they were going through this 40 day thingy. In fact they just breezed through and I was thinking why??? I finally got it , they did not do this program for their self righteousness, they were just on a trip together with God and it really allows them to know Him more and to learn from Him.

The bible said Jesus was tempted for 40 days and I believed that within this 40 days He really got closer to God (In human terms, sometimes Jesus will show how to behave or to do things in terms of a human, for example before He was crucified He prayed, as a God can't He just breeze through everything??? No He wanted to show His love for all mankind and that He can triumph as a human.) and He often sneak off to pray to the Father.

I believe that Jesus already showed us many ways of how we should do things and to seek God even when there are times we feel we can't or when we are in awkward situations. So its time for me to not seek my own righteousness but to know that I really Need God in my life to guide me and to fill me with the Holy Spirit so I don't fall into the temptation of sin.

I want to dedicate myself to God not just for 40 days but forever till I see Him, and that I won't feel shameful to come before Him in heaven. I understand that in the bible it says that God will reveal all things shameful and sinful that a person has done in life. So even though impossible but I know that through God sin can be conquered and that prepare yourselves for that day when you meet God.

There are always 2 sides to a coin, we always like and prefer to see God as the loving tender Father figure but don't forget through out the bible it says that God is a Consuming Fire. All things impure and unholy perishes before Him. In Numbers there has been incident whereby the priests are not prepared and consecrated well and they just DIED before the Tabernacle e.g. the sons of Aaron and some Israelite who went against Moses and God.

Ohhhh I have to go off for a while will be right back.......I end my post now hehehe

Happy Easter part 2

"Eli,Eli Lama sabachthani" Matthew 27:46 Were the few last words that Jesus spoke when He died and this was the only time that the bond trinity BROKE for the first time in eternity. The Father loves the Son and the Son loves the Spirit, but to forgive our sins the Father had to forsake His only Son..........I watched the passion of the Christ again after such a long time and it really broke me to see the pain that Jesus had to go through to forgive me. I now look at Jesus at a even more personal level that I previously had. I feel that if I continue in sin that what difference does it make between me and the roman soldiers that beaten and crucified Him to the cross.......
Wan Qi Wei Elvis April 12 2009


Today I went to my cousin's church, yes the who comes to Macedonia every week with my uncle :) Was quite late when I receive her message to meet at 12am so rushed out and thank God managed to reach in time. We were talking in the bus where a bus on the road EXPLODED and there were a huge mess of smoke and fire. A construction work rushed up to borrow an fire extinguisher to kill the flame thank God it was not my bus and no one was hurt.

Reached Suntec and met some of Michelle's group members and just chatted but felt a bit of awkwardness as it was the first time I met so many people but it was still good :)
Then went for the service together and it was GREAT !!! But the kids were jumping up and down so much that the platform was shaking and I thought the stage was going to collapse. The message was unexpectedly very biblical I thought that the church was more of a devotional church but the bible teacher was very good.

Went for dinner with Michelle's cell group and I really enjoyed the fellowship and find that 2 people really think like me, or should I saw I think like them :) Talked about university life and Theological stuff, was really unexpected but Matthias was even deeper in theology and philosophy than me hahaha I joked with Michelle that he won because he is older than me but if I reached his stage I will win lol. There was a girl that was also very intellectual but looked very blur :P I think her name is Rachael and she studies English at NUS. The thing is she is the same age as me!!!! The rest of the group are 22 and above so I really liked hanging out with them.

Went to buy a special organic soap today and it was on DISCOUNT for half price!!! HALLELUJAH God really blessed me in all ways :)
Then just talked to Weikai who was a Chemistry student that is crazy about Quantum Mechanics hahaha very cool explanation he made but I really like to link it to God as he is a visitor that likes visiting churches but can't bring himself to believe in God. As he prefers to look at things using science and evidence, I remember reading books like "Evidence for Christ..." But sooo disappointed that I did not read it well and can't explain otherwise another person would have benefited but thank God I remember Metaphysics and Quantum Mechanics.

Weikai talked about particles and energy, atoms etc....So I was able to link to God, saying that if you break things down you can see energy and atoms etc.... that's why we say God is everywhere and omnipotent as He is energy and is able to do all things. The chat was then into other stuff as I don't like to force a person into seeing my view point without a clear explanation and I was really praying that he can see not just logic and science but the love of God :)

I know that he really enjoys baking and studying hahaha...then went home and Michelle also went home too. I am praying soon hehe

Bye

Happy easter and good friday

Wow!!!
These few days were extremely heavy for me, not just physically but mentally and spiritually. Nothing hurts me more than looking back 2000 years ago where Jesus died for MY sins, My redemption, ME! "Christianity is not a religion but a RELATIONSHIP with God" says pastor kong hee and I agree to it amen hallelujah. I feel shamed when I know that I am a christian, a child of God , a priest of the most High and yet I am not able to meet up to His standards. Thats why I need Him even more BUT I won't shrink my responsibilities of keeping myself from sin.

Thursday my ex ITE friend Anthony invited me to watch a movie call "The fast and the furious" and he also invited this christian classmate Sherill who is from city harvest . After the movie Sherill invited me to a good Friday event and I knew that there were no events in Macedonia so I asked Anthony to come along and was shocked he agreed. We went for coffee and I was very excited to share the gospel, Jesus's mission and the love of God.

On Friday it rained heavily, in my mind I was immediately reminded of the incident whereby Jesus was crucified and died and there was a sudden change of weather, great earthquakes shook Jerusalem and the Veil was torn. Anyways we went for the city harvest drama and there were LOADS of people. Me and Anthony went to walk around Expo first and Jack Neo was on stage talking about the economy and there were a lot of games. After playing the games we went in and I saw some people that I knew and were on my friendster/facebook chatted with some of them. And soon the drama began, the drama was about what if there was a person that could create a drug that can change the DNA of a person and cause the person not to sin!!! Won't the world be free of sin???

Immediately I remembered of something, and I was struck with the image of De en LOL for no reason but anyways I thought like a theologian and came up with some answers.

1 There will be no more freedom as man no longer have the ability to make choices hence ruining what God gave; Free will.

2 You will not be able to see who really is changed, God refines people, the beauty of it all is that God causes the change and that means even if you can sin you choose not to and hence giving Him the glory.

Anyways back to the drama, there was a scene where alot of people cried that is when Jesus was beaten up by the roman soldiers and I was thinking hey I heard the drama is going to be on for 3 days and there are 3 slots of service that means this guy have to act 9 times and cry 9 times!!!!! WOW what stamina, but I know it will get better with time as in the acting.

Then went to watch another movie again and went home, today was also a good day for me as I had good fellowship and got to play guitar and I tell myself NEVER will I play guitar in church again unless there is really a need because I felt I brought down the standard of the performance BUT I know I am playing for God so there is really no need to fret much about today's performance. We went down to Pasir Ris for dinner and I was thinking about this theology book by one of the people I Respect the most!!! Professor Norman.L Geisler.

I remember De en sharing the book and its first few chapters on proving the existence of God and I really want to write about it in my blog if I have the time :)
Wow there are really a lot of things I want and Like to do!!!

There are basically 4 ways to argue about God's existence
1 Cosmological Argument= Creation
2 Teleological Argument= Design
3 Axiological Argument = Morales
4 Ontological Argument= Being

Will share more next time :P

Just excited cuz I know JESUS RESURRECTED HALLELUJAH!!!

Theology

Before I got my results I told the Lord, "Lord if you will and give me good results I will put more focus in bible teaching and theology amen". Recently I was quite slack and I feel that I must really fulfill what I told Him. I will start studying some of the books I borrowed from de en.

I have split it into 3 parts Bible,Systematic Theology and any other book I want. I started to watch videos of debates and about atheism and the existence of God. I find that the atheist is always trying to prove that there is no God, the is no necessity of a God or in extreme cases even if there is a God there is no need for Him.

There is a need in every one of us to equip ourselves in case there are opportunities whereby we have to preach or to share the gospel. But I feel very cold and tired recently I will pray for the rekindling and a revival to start my journey again after such a long rest.

Theology , Theo means God, logy is the way or the logic. I want to focus in the God part as philosophy theology can make a person arrogant and like Paul said in First Corinthians without love there is nothing.

I end this post now and pray that there will be a growth in me the next time I blog.
Thanks :)

6/4/09 Recent thiNGS i DID!!!

Wow its sunday again :)

There was a thuderstorm today!!! I could not get out of the house till 1.30 but I had a great chat with my dad, initially we were talking about my 5th uncle and that he really has a gambling addiction but his girl friend is a christian at FCBC church in the expo. My dad said it was great as he will really change after going to church. I was like Hallelujah thank you Lord, because my father knows that and that You change people :)

Was late as there was a traffic jam near riverlife so I had to walk all the way in and rush to do ushering. After church went for a song rehesal for this saturday. Then went to talk with stella till the sun set :) Had a nice long chat, after patrick's meeting was done he drove me to tampines mall. Then went to eat fish and Co alone lol

Recently I made a veggie shake and it was SUPER GROSS but I know uncle francis and aunt Jan will be SOOOO HAPPY because I am eating my veggies LOL :)

heres some pics.

Step one take all the veggies

Step 2 put all veggies in the blender

Step 3 blend!!!!!

Step 4 Drink up the grime!!!

Abalone soup lol

My beautiful soup

Brown rice,Tuna and Abalone!!!

Wow I woke up super early today and wensday, I was quite nervous to receive my results and had nightmares but I was somehow ok as I knew I have given my best on to God and if He wishes He will be honoured through the results and here are my results everyone :)


Elect Installation and PLC A
Maths and Prog Methodology A
Sports and Wellness I S

Higher National ITE Certificate in Electrical Engineering
March 2009
GPA 3.857


I was shocked I didn't think I could get A for both the subjects as I thought I was quite weak in them, I now remember when you are weak the Lord is strong. The Lord uses the weak to protray His strong :)

I also have some ideas for the cell group meetings and goig to plan some goals for all of us to achieve :)

But recently though there are alot of good things there are also bad things , I recently sprain my back yet AGAIN!!! Very sianzzz everytime as I am going to reach a peak I get injured but I think it will be good for now as I can slow down and do more bible reading instead of playing so much outside.

Tomorrow I am going to cover a topic if possible and it will be called "Why people go to church", I want to help them see the difference and the 2 "categories" of people that go to church.